War Diary – Day 01: Change Is Coming

Just like they say in the social media, “Change Is Coming” for the country, with the proclamation of its newly-elected president Rodrigo “Rody” Duterte. But in order for a country to change, a change in leadership is not enough.

Each citizen must be willing to make a change. Each citizen must be willing to change. Much like if a person wants to change, he has to start from within.

That’s what I’m starting today: changing myself to be a better individual and trying to be more disciplined and responsible. And I’m doing that by joining a war.

That’s right. The 30-day war between subreddits /r/Heirs_of_the_Sun vs. /r/pornfree vs. /r/disciplesofgrace.

I don’t have much time ’til the day ends so I’m just gonna keep this short. This “war diary” is gonna be a place where I will keep track of my thoughts and activities during the course of this war, especially those that are closely relevant or useful for the war.

And unlike the previous war that I participated in last year, I consider myself to be one of the frontliners this time, and that means that I will be taking an active and aggressive stance in my goals as an individual and in our battles as an army.

This is no time to be thinking exclusively for myself, because my downfall is the downfall of my entire army. No, I won’t be that guy anymore. I used to value isolation because I could focus more easily that way, but I realized I only chose isolation over the company of other people because that is where I am comfortable.

But I could never grow if I stay in my comfort zone. I would never be able to feel the burden of having someone rely on me, of a group of people depending on my success for their survival. I’ve never really considered myself a team player.

Until now.

Today is the day I will shackle the bindings that limit what I think I’m capable of. I think I’m so sure what my limits are, when in truth, I’m not even scratching the surface of my potential. I need to experience suffering, pain, and the sharp stings of discomfort in order to stretch my limits, to train my willpower.

In order to be able to change, I need to be willing to sacrifice.

Comfort does not take the top priority now. The willingness to be better does.

And with that, I conclude my report on the first day of war.

Regaining Self-control

These last two weeks got me learning a lot of things about myself – my limits, my strengths, my weaknesses, and more personal stuff that I failed to see before. Self-control was a concept that was lost to me, as I just kept saying yes to everything until it was all too much. But now I’m working hard again to get it back, and here’s how I’m doing it.

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Commence Reality

So, last week I made my first blog post, and then I slipped back to being stagnant. Or maybe not really. I subscribed to the Fundamentals course of Blogging University, and I was only able to follow up to Day Five out of the nine emails that are already in my inbox as of time of writing. I’m not even satisfied with my theme yet – I’m still on the tedious process of trying out a lot of different themes ’till I find one that fits. But before that, I’m gonna focus on writing content that kicks ass.

Speaking of which, I wanna talk about today’s efforts to self-improvement. First off, I tried making a weekly planner. So I got a template from a video I watched from The Art of Manliness, opened up Excel, and made a pretty accurate replica of that table.

But when it came to filling out those blank boxes, that’s where I failed.

weekly planning fail

Here’s my attempt at planning my Monday.

Maybe because I’m trying to plan my week on a Monday instead of a Sunday. But I also know that I really don’t have much of an experience in planning, so I didn’t know which tasks I should do first to achieve maximum efficiency.

Meaning I should continue practicing my planning skills.

And so, with some sort of plan set out for myself, I went on with my day, trying to stick to my schedule, but not too much that I become counter-productive. For instance, I wasn’t able to take the dogs out on a run at 9 am because I needed to take a dump. But seeing as I don’t have anything on the 9:30 box, I spent that time running back and forth the front of our house with Alexis and Potchi (our dogs).

Fast forward to after lunch, that’s when I set to doing the two 650-word articles for a freelance assignment. And that took me the whole afternoon to finish. So yeah, no art-making and reading e-books today. 😦

On the other hand, what I did today was not something I do everyday. I took the time to allocate my time to the things that matter, and although I haven’t finished them all, I feel great for taking a shot and being able to accomplish something today.

I also joined a subreddit called Heirs of the Sun which aims to motivate people in their fight against porn addiction by simulating an Army-style training. But that is a story for another day.

Have any thoughts about planning? Share them in the comments below!

The Who and the Why

“Relax, Josh. This is just an introduction for your blog. No one’s gonna judge you for it. Just introduce yourself, write what goes on in your mind, and you’re good to go.”

That’s me trying to motivate myself to write this first post and embark on a journey that will make me a better person. Or at least put an end to my cosmic laziness and procrastination.

You see, I studied journalism in college, and I actually write pretty well, from news articles to storyboards for documentaries and everything else in between. I also do a little graphics on the side. But when it comes to voicing my own thoughts, telling my own stories…well, that’s a different story. I’m not sure if I lack the confidence to share my stories to other people or if I’m too anxious to start because I think what I make will not be as perfect as what I want it to be.

And that just sucks – having a journalism degree and not having your own voice.

So I’m starting my own blog to help me find my own voice – one that I won’t be afraid to share to the world. I want to build myself into the man I want to be, to change bad habits and replace them with ones that can help me reach my full potential.

Self-discovery and self-improvement.

That means I’ll write regularly about my life – the things that keep me busy, the projects I’ve been working on, and the reasons that make it worth living.

I also want to connect with like-minded folks who make improving themselves a big deal. Taking that first step to self-improvement can be really daunting. I’ve taken a shot at it myself for a few times, and to be honest, I’ve been doing great…at first. But when you have no one to share your milestones with, you start forgetting how good it feels to smash your goals, and soon enough, you just don’t care. That’s why I want to be able to interact and share this journey with others who, despite having a rough time, are still moving forward because they want this so bad – to be truly awesome.

And lastly, I want this blog to serve as practice for my writing (guess that was obvious) and also to improve my social skills. I like to believe that I’m a really awkward creature who likes to interact with other people but sometimes can’t because shyness gets in the way.

But that changes starting today.

Welcome to my blog, and I hope you have a good day. 🙂